am i wrong to reject care and concern from my friends?

everything seemed to be falling back to this date:

16th Feb 2007: My first medical result was out.

For 1 year, i kept things to myself. rejected the world. rejected socialising. rejected laughters.
perhaps that was how i managed to get my 3 high distinctions and 1 distinction.

The verdict most probably will be out next week.

This time round, i am determined to go by myself. challenged myself to the max.
face the world. face the truth. face reality.

For now, i really detest meeting anyone.
That is the reason why i rejected 3 meetups this week.

i rather work.
work. work and work.

Sometimes, i wonder if i should even blog here.
But, this is the only place i can understand myself.
where you can understand me.

I have so much to say. so much to share.
but i guess it is pointless, useless to do that anyway.

if u truly understand me, u will understand me.